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Comment by Anne on April 24, 2013 at 3:07pm

I will be doing the Race/Walk for the Cure in May.....it will be the first time walking without Mom..and Dad just isn't ready to do it.  I have friends walking with me, just not going to be the same...and isn't going to be an easy walk.  Every time I think about it, my heart aches and tears well up...not sure how I am going to make it through.

Comment by Nancy L on April 24, 2013 at 2:41pm

Today is my mom's birthday.  It has been almost 4 months she has been gone.  I too ache, I wish she were still here so I could tell her happy birthday and that I love her.  Things are just not the same.  Sunday I have a family reunion to go to. This is for my mom's side of the family.  I know it will be a difficult time.  Last year, my mom was feeling good, looked good, was happy to be there.  They always give updates on what has happened in the last year.  I will probably start crying when they say my mom passed.  Be strong!

Comment by Jeff R on April 21, 2013 at 7:00pm

I miss seeing my Mom each weekend; as difficult as her healthcare situation had become, I still enjoyed seeing her each weekend.  Now, things are much simpler, but Mom is gone and I miss our little visits, as brief as they were.   this weekend, they had the townwide garage sale in her neighborhood, so I put out as much as I could from her house. Selling years of stuff for pennies on the dollar; that's what it comes down to at the end.  Just incredibly depressing.  I'll probably have another garage sale in a month or so, then donate what's left.  I can only keep so much, realistically.  I wish she were still here....it's just a dull ache without her.

 

Comment by Melisa C on April 21, 2013 at 4:08pm

Another Sunday and again I'd love to go home and spend the evening with my Mom. I know I will always miss her, but I do hope this feeling of not knowing what's the point in living goes away eventually.

When she passed it was painfully clear what a huge part of my life she is, a huge part of my identity also, my most important role in life was  being her daughter, now I don't really know who I am.

She was so sweet, a very considerate person who would never hurt anyone's feelings. She had a special sense of humor, she kept life flowing for me in spite of her health issues and in spite of everything. I can't believe I won't be able to share another moment with her in this life. Everything seems bitter these days.

Comment by Natalie on April 20, 2013 at 9:45pm

Amen. Thank you, Mike.
((HUGS))

Comment by michael sandoval on April 20, 2013 at 12:35am

Dear Natalie,

My deepest condolences.  That is a beautiful picture and thank you so much for sharing.  From what you have said and the picture, I would have loved to have met your mom.  I hope her and my mom are both praising the Lord together and having a great time watching over us.

God Bless all of us.

MIke

Comment by Natalie on April 19, 2013 at 7:16pm

My precious mom, Nancy Davis, took her last breath 9 months ago. I miss her so much every single day. Sometimes, the grief over not being able to dial her number and have her pick up the phone feels absolutely disorienting & incapacitating. I didn't realize until recently that she was my world, as I knew it. I'm now having to try to re-learn how to simply "be" . . .  My mom was the only person who really knew me and cared about me & my family. Over the last several months, I've seen that she was right about so many things that I just didn't understand before. I so often wish I could just talk to her and tell her. Then, my 10 year-old says, "Don't be sad, Mommy. Mimi already knows. . . "  I try to keep in mind what my mom would want for me, how she would want me to handle this and I try to be strong and make decisions that would make her heart rejoice & be pleased.  She always said her children were "from good stock".  :)  I will pray for all of us in this group. May God take care of us and our precious Mama's too.

This is my mom and my 10 year-old, just 5 short months before she went to be with the Lord.

Comment by Melisa C on April 18, 2013 at 6:41am

I've also been thinking about things I didn't get to ask my Mom. I don't know very much of her life before she had me. I could ask my aunts, but they didn't live in the same country we live in, so I don't know if they can tell me what I want to know. I feel so stupid in not having asked many questions while she was alive.

 I don't know if she believed in the afterlife, how she thought it would be. I don't know how exactly was her relationship with my father, who left her when she got pregnant. I don't know how she felt about what I was doing with my life, whether I let her down, because caught up in daily life I didn't usually speak frankly with her.

 I didn't know she was going to die, so I couldn't imagine I wasn't going to have the chance to discuss many issues, but still.

 It's crazy how much she took away with her when she passed!

Comment by Helder Silva on April 17, 2013 at 6:03pm

Irene,

I still have my mom's phone number memorized and I have absent mindedely begun to dial her phone number on several occasions. I just recently found out that my mom was primarily raised by my great grand parents and I have so many questions about that. Now I can never ask her about the circumstances that lead to that and her experiences living with my great grand parents.

So much knowledge and wisdom has been lost with her passing. She always had the right answers and advice when I needed it. Life without her now feels like walking at the top of a tower without a safety tether. The feelings of belonging have weakened to the point of almost feeling isolated.

I wish I could just dial her number and have her answer. I would give anything for that.

Comment by Cindy Czarnecki on April 17, 2013 at 3:27pm

Erica..so sorry for you and your family. 

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