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Comment by Lisa Green on November 4, 2016 at 8:39am

Lindsey, 

I accepted your friend request 

Comment by samantha on November 4, 2016 at 8:38am

The 14 will mark two month's since my mom suddenly passed. The i

Comment by Lindsay on November 4, 2016 at 8:33am

Lisa, I added you as a friend in hopes that I could private message you with a question?

Comment by Lindsay on November 4, 2016 at 8:26am

I so wish none of us were even in the position to be on this site, but it is a little less lonely going through it with anyone that understands. Thank you all for the replies, they are so helpful when you feel so desperate. Lisa, I am the very same. I go with the motions. I go to work every day. I am very involved with my daughter (the other two are my step daughters). We go to birthday parties, activities, you name it. I will not let this take away from my daughter's happiness, but every day is a true struggle. I smile much less now and when I do, it's mostly forced. My doctor also suggested an anti-depressant which has been so tough. I have never taken any sort of medication, but I am at a point where I just don't know how I can live like this every day. I don't mean that in a "scary" way, but this isn't LIFE. I want normalcy back. I don't want to mask or bury my feelings, but I just don't want to feel this unsettled, anxious way every minute of every day. Thank you for posting about your visit to the doctor. I feel sometimes people are ashamed of having to turn to medication and I think it is so important to talk about it and realize that it can be life changing. Theresa and Monica, the anxiety is just awful. Downright crippling at times. I think about her constantly and wonder how I'll ever be happy again without her with me. I also feel resentful and question a lot. I am so angry that my Mom will miss out on seeing my daughter grow and even more that my daughter doesn't have her best Gram anymore. And that I don't have her myself. We spoke multiple times a day. She lived across the street from me. Nothing is the same, not even close. It's so hard. I wish you all relief as well.

Comment by Lisa Green on November 4, 2016 at 7:56am

Lindsey,

I completely relate to how you are feeling. I don't think anyone has put it into words any better than you did. I too have a husband, kids and pets and extended family that I see fairly often. I work everyday and attend my kids sporting events (the one thing that does bring me some relief) and yet I feel very lonely, worried about things for no reason, irritated very easily, no sense of hope for happy times even though I go through all the motions of being ok. Tears come easily and not just when I'm thinking about Mom but the smallest of things bring me to tears. I went to my family doctor and expressed all of this to her Monday and she suggested an anti-depressant and grief counseling. Neither of these are things I have ever done in the past. I started a new medication Monday night and it has been a complete turn around for me. I would never have thought it could make this much difference in how I feel but it does. Monday morning in the doctors office was the last time I cried. Four whole days without tears. That's a first since my Mom passed in February of this year. I start grief counseling next week. I just got to the point where I was ready to accept anything that would help me get back to some kind of normal way of feeling. I don't know how long I will continue the medication but for now, it has been a good decision for me. May God give you all relief from the excruciating pain of losing our Moms. 

Comment by Theresa on November 4, 2016 at 5:12am

Monica, my prayers go out to you......

Lindsay, I feel worse, my anxiety is so bad my stomach is taking the brunt of it.  Its awful, I pray for healing everyday.

This month will be 11 months since my mom went home unexpectedly, our last words were her asking me "you know what hospital right" and I said " Yes mom Bryn Mawr, I'm leaving right now".....thats it, the next call on my phone was the hospital stating she was in full cardiac arrest.....

I try  hard every day to live, but my life will never be the same again.

Comment by Heather on November 4, 2016 at 1:28am

Hi Lindsey, I do feel worried a lot, anxious and a bit resentful. I am questioning everything and wondering if I should take a stress leave from my job. I work in an area of social services and feel incapable of giving anything more of myself. I miss my mom so much and like you, even tho I have a houseful of kids, a husband, and pets, I feel this loneliness I've never felt before. I can only imagine how conflicted you must feel losing your mom then getting married...two major life changing events...I think it is natural to feel lost and anxious...still doesn't make the process of grief any easier.
I wish you much light ...

Comment by Lindsay on November 3, 2016 at 10:02pm

Sitting here in the quiet. Husband asleep, kids asleep, dogs snoring away. Mom gone in June, I got married in September. Seems surreal to go through the absolute worst time in my life and one of the happiest all in 3 months. I read these posts to remind myself I am not alone. It's been almost 5 months and I miss her the same as I ever did. I'm lonely without her (with 4 dogs, a husband and 3 kids), I feel worried all the time. Just always unsettled and nervous and I couldn't even pin point exactly what about. Does anybody else feel that way? I feel it inside, don't show it. I desperately want the zest and happiness back that I had. I know it's about finding the new normal as people say, I'm just looking for anything normal really. I am so lost without my best friend.

Comment by Heather on November 3, 2016 at 9:48pm

Oh Monica, my heart goes out to you on the year mark of your dear mom's passing. Sending you thoughts of courage and strength...

Comment by Monica on November 3, 2016 at 9:44pm

Yesterday, Nov 2,2015 last year was the last time i spent time with my Mother for her 75th birthday. She died suddenly the next day. That is today, November 3rd.....the year mark we have been without our beloved Mother. My eyes are tired, my heart is weak. It seems only yesterday...THIS IS SOOO VERY DIFFICULT!!!! I cant begin to put it into words.

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