I LOVE YOU GABRIEL

death runs in 3s janury 2013 monday 7th january the last few days all iv herd is death a freind of my dads died jimmy nbor died thn today in the obitchery another frined of my mum and dads brian who had the big c i feal like death is folloring me all over                                                                                              i hate death it just seams 1 funrall after a another funrall 

Another victum impact. My mother was stabbed to death april 11,1989. He knocked on her door said he had a sick child and was locked out of his apartment. he came in pulled a knife out my mother was heard saying take what you wantbut please don't hurt me. he slashed her face multiple defensive wounds. He stopped and ate had a cigarette. back then dna was real new so the case got shoved in a box. the law now saysall felonies must give a dna sample. They found the guy. For the next year…

IM PLEASED 2012 HAS GONE ALL THE BAD LOOK WIT IT I WOZ WONG GOT A CARL OFF MY ANTI ON THUSDAY TO SAY 1 OF MY DADS FREIND JIMMY HAD DIED SAW A OLD NBOR GEORGE WHO TOLD US GEORDIE HAD DIED I WOZ ONLY SPEAKING HIM 2 YESTERDAY MORNING AND HE WOZ OK THEN I WOZ PLEASED 2012 HAD GONE ONLY SAD BIT ABOT WOZ THE LAST TIME I SAW MY DAD ALIBE WOZ 2012 ON THE 2ND MARCH HE DIED THE 3RD OF MARCH AT 220AM

it does creep in that uh maby I didn,t do enough to keep her healthy,there was a lot of issues. She was in and out of the hosp so many times maby her son and me just grew immune to what was going on. I feel sad(she died may 26,2012) What went on the last time she was in the hosp was just a downward spirl into a trip to internity with no return. So I feel sad. I have mixed emotions,after all this wasn,t a picture perfect marriage (no kids except a boy form a former marriage. I would say my…

How do I begin to heal?  It's been about 4  months since Dad passed away and I still have a hard time talking about it.  I've tried telling my story on here for months but every time I start typing I break down.  I'm still trying to makes sense of things.   He passed away on September, 3^rd 2012 at 8:03 AM from lung cancer.  He went from diagnosis to death in a matter of a couple weeks.  My Dad was the healthiest person I've ever known.  By the time he…

Well today is the firt day of the new year. I'm in a strange place right now. I've gone through so many emotions this past year. I liked the good state of mind. I don't like the sad state of mind. I like feeling ok because I don't know what feeling wonderful is anymore. I've gone through so much that just when I think I've got things atleast somewhat figured out, the old haunts come back to bite me. I've worked so hard to treat my daughters better than ever so they'd know that they are just…

I can't believe that on January 27th, my beautiful mother will have been gone a year! It seems like forever ago since I saw and spoken with her, yet it feels like it just happened! I have been completely numb and dead inside in 2012 and been in a total fog..when will I ever feel alive again? I know I will never be over her but I want acceptance & forgiveness of myself and I don't know how to achieve that!

My wonderful son. I can't believe you have passed on. It was just this year we watched Whitney Houston's funeral together. She left behind a beautiful song that reminds me of the final moments of your life. I am very proud of you. I admire your strength and all that you accomplished. So, lift your head my son. You did very well. Rest in Paradise. Love you! Mom

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This year would've been my first one as a mom, but no I wasnt that lucky my baby was taken from me and I still havent gotten over it. Will I ever? Maybe if I'm ever lucky enough to once and for all become a mom. 

i no broken bones is easy to fix thy can heal but a loss of a loved 1 u can never fix 

The Christmas holiday has come and gone, but it was just not the same.  Nobody wanted to say anything because no one wanted to start the crying, but everyone knew it.  We always have everyone over to spend Christmas eve with my husbands parents, then they stay the night and spend Christmas day with us.  It was not until my father in law was talking to my brother in law on the phone that the crying started.  I was trying my hardest not to ruin the holidays for everyone, but he was right,…

last xmas my dad woz alive and my dads mate my surgate unlcle if id new it woz my dads last i wishd i spoilt him more his bday tomrowo his 1st 1 up in the or shud say out side the gates of heven he used to say im not going in side thm gates till u all come i beleve it with my dad i just hope thr is bars wesr he can get booze and restronts wear he can get food and beting shops so he can still do his horses and a paper shop so he can read his news papers i just…

The older I get, the more painful the absence of my mother seems to be. People move on at different phases, and although I don't stay up and cry every night the way I use to, I know that my heart is still broken. 

I try to heal it by sharing my heart and love with other people, but when…

Michael, you loved Christmas and decorating and shopping and cooking. I know you'd be mighty disappointed in me that there isn't one anything that resembles Christmas. There is hardly any food in the house. Not one card has been mailed out. My heart just about bursts when I hear a carol or see the lights of our neighbors.

You're supposed to be here - we were supposed to be doing Christmas big this year! But you're in Heaven now and I can imagine the celebration that must be going to…

bulling can be a loss it makes people lose confidens in thm selfs and people have dun silly thngs to thm selfs coz of bullying i woz bulled my self wen i woz youngar

Talked to my Dad today and found out that my Mom used to call all the grandkids and sing Happy Birthday to them, not just for Bill and I.  UGH....I called Bill's work number on the 7th and sang to him...didn't hear from him until yesterday...he said he really appreciated and that I sound just like Mom when I sang it. Now I have said I would keep up the tradition with the kids and with Bill. Small issue though.....who is gonna sing it to me?