This year would've been my first one as a mom, but no I wasnt that lucky my baby was taken from me and I still havent gotten over it. Will I ever? Maybe if I'm ever lucky enough to once and for all become a mom. 

Will someone please help me? I couldnt be anymore lost than I am right now. No one understand what I'm going through. They say the grieve time is over and I should move on. Its only been 6 days since I found out....

I've been so depressed lately. I need to know how I can move on from this betrayal. Why would my so called friend tell us we can adopt her baby then go in for an abortion and tell us she had a miscarriage? Who does that? I am so lost its all I can think about it consumes my thoughts every minute since I found out the truth. It a huge loss. I wanted that baby so bad, I saw it's little hand and body on the ultrasound picture. "My friend" even went with me to check out baby items all…