My dad was diagnosed just a week after my 21st birthday and just three days before i was scheduled to move back to for my senior year of college that was 2 hours away from home. I was more than ready to take a semester off to help around the house and with my father. We were told that it was stage 4 lung cancer, that was highly aggressive and had already metastasized. We were told he would have maybe 2 years but that it was unbeatable. That entire weekend we argued back and forth but my…

My husband and I had discussed that this past year we were going to tell my son the truth about santa, etc. Then my husband passed in October so I didn't want to take that magical experience away from him even though he's 9 because it was so close to his father passing. Now with Easter coming up- has it been long enough to tell him the truth about the bunny since he is 9 now or should I let him hold that for one more year? Very torn.

So time still isn't helping I know its been not quite 3 months but the days are long the nights are long, I'm still crying all the time. And now what....three days ago my dad was admitted to the hospital for pneumonia..he keeps telling me he is tired, tired all the time.I know he is missing mom although he doesn't cry like me, I know deep in my heart he is heartbroken. .nothing is the same he doesnt like to do alot of the things he did before mom went to heaven..I won't be able to handle…

I tried this meditation to meet with my deceased loved one and it really worked. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6diOcY65xGI

today I got mail for shawn, omg I cryed and screamed, the pain I felt in my heart.  will it ever stop? oh god I miss my baby so bad. I just want so much to RUN to him. my eyes are so swollen, my heart so empty. oh please please god take me to my son, im so tired and weak. so alone.  almost 15 months, its like yesterday, easters on the 5, his birthdays the 5 and the fifth means 15 months . so dam much on one friggen day, its to hard to deal with, to pain full to  go on. let me feel you shawn…

Losing anyone is a difficult experience to go through but I feel that losing a spouse can be more traumatic. Whenever you lose someone you have your partner to support you, someone to hold your hand and tell you it's going to be okay and you'll get through this. But when you lose your spouse you don't have that support. Friends and family try to be there to help you but your partner would be there at times no one else could, first thing in the morning, last thing at night or when you…

my older sister called first time in a month, asked me how I was, I told her it was a bad week hurting and crying. to my surprise  she told me to take all my pills and end my life then I will be with my son.  I cryed all night holding my pills, waiting for shawn to help me decide. I want so much to go with him, I cant go on like this, it hurts so much. maybe shes right, I know ill never be happy without my son, I feel to much hate, so dead inside, so very empty and alone, dear god so alone. …

Right now no matter what I do everything seems to be wrong when it comes to my son trying to deal with this also and it is a big thing for him so I am trying to do special things. Today I made reservations for horseback riding (which I love and am experienced) and he wanted to do for the first time finally. After I made the redervations he was happy for a while but then it was right bacj to yelling at me and hittting himself in the face making me feel like the worst mother in the world. I…

As a woman, emotions are hard to handle, hard to control and hard to calm into logic.  But  being a woman or not, I'm sure this can go for anyone, this grieving, this pain seems to be its own person. Like a heavy weight inside my head and heart, a powerful spirit who can buckle me at my knees...With all respect for my mother i know she wouldn't  want me to still be crying, to still be able to not function without her. But at times it just seems like i cant help it. I wonder why it is that we…

I'm looking for some help or advice.

   I'm feel the guilt every day of the decision I was asked to make.

Thirteen years ago my wife and I ,already having a one year old son found out were going to have a little sister for him. After painting her room pink,picking out a perfect name,and telling all of our friends and family, our future was turned upside down. At almost five months pregnant,the doctors found serious problems with our unborn baby. Because of the severity of her…

I cry everyday, I feel so dead, please shawn help me to be with you. that's all I want, that's what I need. I have never felt such pain in my heart. I need you to come to my dreams, let me hold you one more time, let me hear you call me  MOM , let me feel your love one more time. you are and always will be my perfect son, my baby forever. how will I handle your birthdays coming, mothers day is coming,  I will never be happy till I hold you again,  please god take me to my son, let me smile…

My husband passed away on February 20th. We've been together for 32 years and I'm not sure how I'm going to cope with being without him. I've known him for over half my life and it feels a little scary. I have supportive friends and family but they can't be with me all the time and I find myself crying nights and weekends when I miss him the most. During the day I'm at work and it feels normal, except no one texts me to say 'I love you,' or ask me how my day is going.  I'm good at being…

Hello,

My name is Valerie and I just recently lost my husband who was only 45 years old. I'm hoping you can share your stories with me, share you pain and hopefully we can encourage each other in this journey we did not choose for ourselves. 

I'm sure many of you feel the same. The emptiness at times can be overwhelming. I've cried so much everyday since his passing and I feel like part of me died with him. He was my soul mate and best friend. He was my…

dad i miss u i wish u wear still hear plus evry 1 el its gon 2

i wish u gud i wish u cud  be still hear

still miss u i dont thn i will ever stop mising u 

i ask why did u hav 2 go why did othrs die on top did i do any thng…

Yesterday I got woke up to being told someone very close to me had passed..my family didn't even botherto call and tell me I had to hear it from a friend..then my sister called to say she's coming for the funeral and to cuss me out.. I literally busted out in tears all I could think another family member gone way to soon..I realize my family and I have not gotten along since the deaths of my parents yet why be so cruel and evil?? I feel alone and can't help but wonderif he felt alone when…

I'm so nervous about going tonight... I dont want to see him this way... but I want to see him if it makes sense.  I pray that I have the strenth to make it through tonight and the funeral on Saturday.  I am mad at God for making me go through this... I don't know what I did to deserve such suffering...

So I really can't stand it when people keep telling me you will be OK. How do they know I'll be OK? 

They aren't with me 24 hours a day 7 days a week. They dont see me cry, or how many times I cry. They don't see the little things that may mean so little to someone how much they mean to me, such as cooking in a pan my mom used when I was growing up, or the thought of going to church and her not being thee, or the ten times she would call me in a matter of four hours and her not…