Every time I wake up I find that I have to face another day of my wife not being there, although it's been 16 years now since the angels came, I know if I mention her to someone it'll just give them a cause to tell me that I should be "over it" by now. Sitting at the desktop tonight playing her favorite sport, pool, I began to wonder what she would think of me now-having changed my appearance from my long Yanni appearance to a short typical haircut-would she be upset? And then I began to…

It must be the holidays, because she expired just after Halloween, I still can't make myself mention the 'D' word as in someone's life ending. But every video , every song she and I listened to reminds me of her. I lose control of my emotions, involuntarily, when hearing certain songs as "One more night", "Last Kiss", "Because you loved me" , and "Wind beneath my wings".

No one can ever imagine the feeling of losing someone , even though they are laying right in front of you with…

I keep thinking that soon I'll wake up from this nightmare, but 'when' ?! The thing is, when my wife was around, I lost her when she was only 35, I used to be known for lighting up the moods when things got tense. I used to be known for making others laugh when things began to get too serious,especially when I'd look over at her to see a look of confusion or sadness. I used to be the one who came up with all the answers, making others laugh in order for others to get their minds off their…

There's never a day that goes by that I don't think about my wife, even after 16 years now(next month), some would expect me to be contemplating suicide yet I made a pact with her that I wouldn't as a promise to her. However, there's this odor, for lack of a more logical expression, that I can't ignore that seems to be coming from within me I can't get rid of. It's the same fragrance she had in her hair , it was so unique which led me to believe there was no shampoo…