Anita Kelly . I lost my husband on October 26, 2009

I came home from work to find my husband Joe dead on the floor. He wasn't feeling good for a long time. He had an accident in 2008 which left  him with no job. He had to go from a good paying job, to a job thaat they called him when needed. He had to undergo therapy etc.due to the accident. He got severly depressed due to this, Didn't take care of himself. He had some trouble with his heart in 2007. I got him on his feet, then little by little the fluid started building up. He didn't care about anything anymore not even his family. Instead of coming right home that day I ran an errand. If I came straight home maybe I would have seen him or talked to him before he passed I don't know, I feel guilty. then I lost my job. I am okay for awhile then it starts again. Sundays are the worst for me. Every Saturday night like clockwork I start crying & it continues all the way into Sunday.  I was told maybe it is a good idea that I talk to someone. It is only 8 months. My God am I supposed to be over this like that?

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Permalink Reply by mary black on June 29, 2010 at 3:28pm
Anita,

Sometimes it's like going to that empty well. We keep trying for different results and still get the same crap. I guess one thing you can be thankful to them for is that they opened the flood gates.....sometimes it doesn't matter how things make us cry, just so we cry and get the grief out. It sound like you did a good job of getting some out.

I guess for me I have found there is just a handful of people that I can really talk to about certain things without being judged. I thank you for being one of them.

All we can do is pray for those people and leave the rest go.

Sending you many hugs and blessings

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