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Permalink Reply by emma on August 19, 2012 at 10:50am

I feel your pain so much!!! I lost my big sister 4 months ago due to a tragic accident I was also 5 months pregnant when it happen and I can't cope at all :( I have 3 weeks left to go but I am scared of not being able to cope ... We were so so close we needed eachother we were almost like twins look alike same intrestes Everythibg I have no other brother or sisters... My mum is broken I don't no how to help her ... Dad is just trying to cope I guess ... I feel so lonely guilty Everything ... Can't sleep eat and won't see my friends I just feel broken :( xx

Permalink Reply by emma on August 19, 2012 at 10:52am

And Same my partner just doesn't understand :(

Permalink Reply by Yetzy L. Diaz on August 20, 2012 at 9:05pm

I understand your loss and I know how difficult it is.  I guess this pain we feel for losing our sisters will never go away, we just learn to live with this pain and sometimes people don't understand that.  It has been 4 months since my sister died and I totally miss her.  I wish I go back into time and make things better. 

Permalink Reply by emma on August 21, 2012 at 2:31am

It's just a Horrible thing to go through I still can't believe it's happebed I feel so lonely with out her I love and miss her so much I can tell it will never get easier sorry for your losses xx

Permalink Reply by Ashlee Lopez-Garcia on August 21, 2012 at 8:26am

Though i am having a hard time getting past this depression. My son has given me the strenght to go on.... He brings a little light in my dark depression... I hope that your child does the same for you.... Now if only we could get our men to understand our pain..

Permalink Reply by Mimi Giovanni on August 21, 2012 at 11:43am

I am back and forth with depression and i do have my children to keep me going. I don't know what become of me if i didn't have them. I don't think they know they are my strength. My husband ask me sometimes what's wrong with you or what got you in deep thought. I am like Oh My Gosh she has been gone for 7 months. Should i be over it already. I mean really!!!! and does it really matter how long she has been gone. I will never stop thinking, remembering and missing her. If someone else ask me what's wrong with you, i am going to scream so loud it's going to make the earth shake!!!!

Permalink Reply by emma on August 21, 2012 at 12:03pm

Gosh I totally know what you mean:( I don't think it matters if it's 7month 7 years 30 years!!!! They are our sisters :( I think properly the closest relationship you will ever have with another person it's so so hard I think about her all the time bless her I love her so much as I am sure you guys do yours .. I am worried I won't be able to cope when my daughter is born she is due in 2 weeks xx

Permalink Reply by Mimi Giovanni on August 29, 2012 at 11:09am

Yes it is very much so the closest relationship I have ever had and to not have someone like my baby sister to go to. it's killing me, so much i need to say and tell her. Her advice i am dying to hear. I had just told my sister I was pregnant 7 mths ago and she couldn't wait to see this new baby. Wow my baby will never know her But I'll make sure I'll tell him/her about her, so it will be as if she had always been with them. I will naming my baby if it's a girl after my sister.

Permalink Reply by emma on August 29, 2012 at 1:50pm

I no my sister was so excited about being an aunty for the first time I just can't believe it makes me feel sick Everyday ... I always feel guilty, brokenhearted, angry can't sleep I try and eat but it's a difficult task Im having a girl I wanted to call her Sarah after my sister but I'm calling her middle name Sarah I miss her so much :( how far are you know? It's so difficult carrying a child while grieving the loss of somebody so close it's like half of you is missing isit :( Im due in 1 week 3 days now she is the only thing keeping me going my prayers are with you xx

Permalink Reply by Mimi Giovanni on August 31, 2012 at 11:57am

Half of me is missing, talk about being angry, guilty, brokenhearted and can't sleep that is me 100%. My mind still can accept it, sometimes i act like it's not true. I wont think of her that way and than reality sinks in again. I had a dream about her the other day. I was sitting on the coach and she walk in smiling and laughing as she always did. I said I knew it was a lie your not gone. She was standing in front of me, than she said I'll be right back. I started screaming don't go, because i knew she wouldn't come back. But she left anyway, my heart sank hard. I woke up crying so much!!!

Permalink Reply by emma on August 31, 2012 at 2:06pm

I hate dreams like that :( I had 1 the other day very similar she was in my house and we were having fun but she said I have to go soon and I was sad she said to me dont be sad I don't mind going its ok :( I woke up sweating and cried .. Yes I know what you mean about not accepting it I still think she is on holiday or something I just can't believe this has happened I feel so so heart broken and lonely xx

Permalink Reply by Mimi Giovanni on September 7, 2012 at 11:57am

i feel so alone, i cant put into words. I can't see this being my life forever. It doesn't seem to be real to me, sometimes i forget she is gone and think oh i will call her later. But than it hits me, i can't and than i cry and cry for her. I hate talking about her in past tense. Because she is not past tense to me. She is my here and now.

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