I just told someone on here I would try a blog. I didn't even remember I had posted on my blog before. My brain is in a fog. I've been told by a friend who lost her young son she went through the same thing and eventually it will clear. Yesterday I checked my purse to make sure I had a check in my wallet and found the little bag of cat treats in it that I had meant to put in the cabinet. It would be funny if it wasn't so sad. I'm usually a Type A, get things done immediately,very efficient type… Continue

Usually it hits me in the evening, the realization that he isn't coming home. That's when I cry, rant at God, ask everybody I know in heaven to help me get through this. Today it is only 10:00 a.m. and I am already in my evening stage.It is just going to be a horrible day. Can't focus on anything to get it done, doesn't really matter anyway. What's the point? On days like today, nothing matters except that I am alone. This "time will heal" stuff isn't working. I don't expect to be "healed" but… Continue