with everything and everyone getting ready for Christmas, my pain is worse, my heart so broken. I only want to hold you, to touch your face, to feel your love. I gave everything that's Christmas away, without you there will never be a holiday, its just another day filled with heart break. I sleep in your pjs and I can smell you with me. but I cant feel you, I need so bad to feel you. if you told me you need me I would come right away. please come to my dreams, please come to me. night god bless my beautiful son, I love you more than life,  forever you are my heart    love  mom