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Comment by Lori B. on September 16, 2012 at 8:28am

Hi, yeah, it sucks, there's no way around that.  Sometimes what it seems to come down to is having the strenth to say good bye. As far as doing that gracefully...I don't know that there's a way to do that. so each of us just do the best we can.  When it comes to that point, wheather it's the natural progression of an illness, or as you did, stoppinglife support, we all do the best we can.  For me, it was a bitter sweet moment, he was at peace, finally.  He was surrounded by everyone he loved, and he just slipped away, very quietly. There was beauty in his last moments, We were there with him, we quietly loved him through his last moments, as we had every other day.  We were simply there for him and each other. There was beauty in the process, and sadness...but each of us feel better for having been there with him when he sliped from this world.  Now don't get me wrong, it sucks not having him here, and i miss him everyday, so much really now, after a year, it's somehow been a bit harder.  Still, I will gladly face it, and fugure out how to work through the sadness because the joy that he brought to my life is so much greater then the sadness his death has left me.  If i had my wish, he and i would have grown old together, but that wasn't up to me.  So i am thankful every day that I had such an amazing man in my life.  And it does leave me hopeful for the future, and finding love again.  I'm open to loving again, in fact, am looking forward to it. And THAT is exactly how he would have wanted it, because above all, he has always wanted me to be happy and loved.  And he proved that everyday of our life together. I love him, I always will, but there is room in my heart, and more than enough love to share.  This leaves me feeling hopeful.  It's more then a year out, and i do find myself, being able to share more of myself with people i meet. Its a really good feeling, because i know I'll have love again.  THAT, leaves me hopeful.