As I start regaining grounds of my OWN LIFE, it´s amazing how many people love to through some crap to get a negative reaction. Of course if they touch my HURT the WRONG WAY, they gained just MORE DISTANCE form my feelings and life. It´s not about them. It´s about TIME my life is ABOUT ME. If they cared to SUPPORT my HEALING, they WOULD NOT be doing that. Settting me off will work just perfect knowing exactly where my HURT is, but in fact what they just EARNED was a greater physical distance from ME. Won´t stick around for more crap my way. It´s time to GIVE MYSELF the PEACE I DESERVE. And if that means not showing up, limiting access in many shapes and forms, SO BE IT. I show my teeth not because they are beautiful or because I enjoy the process of being stressed out and distributing crap right back to the owner. But because I AM WELL ENOUGH to WALK AWAY when the other available option is SUCUMBING to their love of CONTROL. Yes, there is ABUSE in the name of CARING FOR ME. Well, if they really ever cared, there would be KINDNESS and walking TOGETHER. Not the presence pushing around my emotions. Of course I will react, until I put them in their place and distance so far that I am ABLE TO GIVE MYSELF SPACE TO HEAL. There are so many people who never really dealt with the issues of their own that the best they know to do is push around to feel better themselves by opposition to what they caused. I am fully responsible for the HURT I HAVE, but also for the crap I give and for the distance I set that is SAFE to ME now. Coming out HURt is a place where most are by definition UNWELCOME, because the best they ever have in their lives depends on how many they can drag around. Many families and peers live disfunctional lives and love to drain to get attention. But not by EARNING, becaause that takes way more effort and knowing to be GOOD and KIND, whereas not many even know to get to that much into dealing with themselves. They self medicate with sex, alcohol, and measure value with income. Measure affection by attention seeking. And measure progress with their measure of it, which we know lack minimum standards to be itn our lives. So the best they can do it tip off and then enjoy the crap dump on their heads. That´s what they are sed to, but not ME. I just will do enough to walk away until I no longer have to take a smal chance there. Society is not ready to deal with the inside job, because if life quality was the primary goal, we would need a lot less and money would be highly out the equation. Gives comfort, but most things money can´t buy and these are by far the best, such as love, friendship, loyalty, and so on. So, I tent to take a hard look into people tipping me off as to what mortivation and what life they have to be of any example to mine in values, and I garanttee most I look hard and don´t make the cut. So, not because they are around where I live or have same last names, they deserve any of my feelings and specially the negative attention feed to their EGO. Sight