even though our marriage wasn,t perfect and psychogically and emotionly we both suffered through negative mental crap we existed in somewhat of a happy state of mind. You never expect someones life to drastically change in a space of three weeks(maby four).After all she had heart problems and the hosp would always fix her . Whats odd she had a cardiac arrest(cpr) and She or me didn,t really place alot of thought on and apparently the bubbling heart doctor didn,t either (like ah lets run some tests or whatever.) So after south austin hosp got thru with her this time her toes and fingers turned black ,she had a perment breathing tube and her insides were messed up courtesy of the doctors and nurses that work in the hosp.They may have meant well but I feel they were just stabbing in the dark and really didn,t know her overall health.She was a dialysis patient and always took that in stride. She had two needles put in her chest which came out leaving scar tissues .She always complained about the scars.So they end up sticking needles in her everyhere. Regardless she was having heart problems and it would certianly got worse had the hosp not tried to correct the problems but were unable to ieve her  so I made the decison to stop treatment(I seem to be repeating myself)

After 35 yrs of marriage its over just like that. Me who always depended on her and let her run the show make the decisions.Her life reduced to a box full of ashes.

So anyway here Iam thrust out in the wilderness

Dave