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Comment by Tracy on January 13, 2011 at 12:51pm

Thanks so much.  It's so hard for me not to control everything all the time.  I'm such a planner and have planned out my life to a T.  It wasn't until the last time and this time that my plan has been completely thrown off course and now I find myself lost and wondering where to go next.  I feel like it's God's way of telling me to stop planning out my life and start living it... but that just seems so cliche.  I'm very sorry for your loss.. I can't imagine losing the love of my life but I'm sure that he made an impact on so many people's lives and you can see him every day in the people and children you have around you. 

Comment by tammi sue maczorowski on January 13, 2011 at 11:09am

it is normal to feel this way. i feel like im fine one day the next day im a basket case. and 5 weeks is so soon for you. i have actually very joyous times. but my faith and church has alot to do with that. but days like today. i cannot think about anything else but jeremy. its been 11 or 12 weeks for me. he was 32. but we have small kids. so sometimes i try to hide my pain for them. but no i don't think its bipolar. its grieving.  and losing a child is extremely hard. ive only had a misscarriage. ive lost a young husband. but from what ive heard losing a child is the hardest. since we always feel we should leave this earth before them. im sorry for your loss. and what makes the days ok. try not to figure it out. just realize the grieving will let up some days. and in time it will let up more. lol tammi