as I read every ones letters, I sit here and cry, my heart is so broken with out my son ( shawn ) and I can feel your broken hearts to. we ask why? and never get answer, we ask to go to, and again no answer. how do we go on with them, that will never happen.  to be in this unbearable pain and have our friends leave us forever, our family hurt us even more. no one can see or under stand  or hear our crys. its been 10 months for me and it feels like yesterday. I want so bad to be with shawn and I pray its not to far away till I hold my baby again. I under stand now that the ones I called my friends were not true to me. I have found true friends in here. I feel your tears and I know you feel mine.  thank you for being you.  hugs and love  kim ,