I don,t care how our marriage went in the final years. I must have depressed her terribly(maby) I don,t know,she backed me into a corner over the years.Her revengful temper ,(or what  ever you want to call it) came between us,also my inability to get out from under.

So much for that.we were together 35 yrs (since 1977) Sometimes I cann,t bring myself to even type my true feelings. So as everyone knows the loss of someone close is a debilitating. Having to pull her life support haunts me. She was in bad shape ,a fact today causes me to think how could she or the voodo doctors and nurses let her get that. Its not like she or I was a stranger to her health problems

Do I miss her,yes .Would I have traded her"' mood changes" in for her passing ahh I don,t know .It s a horrible twist of fate. All the times I was drinking and driving when she kicked me out,what saved me from being thrown in jail. ?

 I was relating to my doctor I don,t binge drink or drink while driving . I used to do it all the time with her resulting in a DWI(now the laws in texas are much stifer)

Wheww! its hard I miss her companionship. Somehow the bad times don,t really come into play although I do rememeber them .

Well its 1232 am and Iam burnt out

Dave