out of  body experience....its how i feel about my days  im going through the motions getting things done, surviving but not involved on a real experience level.  i just move, do, sleep, eat, wake and do again.  everything has an anniversary, tuesdays are when we went to the hospital for the last time, fridays when he refused the ventilator, saturdays when he passed, my new life calendar.  tomorrow with be 4 weeks of tuesdays :(

when will this feeling stop?