there are some grief support groups in austin but not much. So I come here and blog,maby to much.. Me and my wife never did keep a photo album or anything like that. .Well ok we did along time ago.I don,t have a recent picture of her . People always ask how Iam doing and I always say "good" what I really want to say is Iam depressed screwed up I want to smash something and Iam  confused,No one is making decisions for me Iam having to do all  of it. I need t ge my butt out and get into some activites. Well enough is enough no more blogs today even after death she left alot of stuff to straighten out we never did plan on her death or make preparation  in case she died or I died . She always was into signing contracts for houses and then canceling them

Dave