well I have come to the point "have to move on and deal with the grieving moments as they come up .Iam almost sick of trying to live alone. Which brings up good point I have been scared of trying anything new . I realize in a small way or big way in order to break out in the cruel world I need to get out there,it goes against my internal feelings .

We remember our loved ones who who have left us as I do,however unless I allow myself to sink into a depressing slump there has to be a life somewhere only which I make .

By Monday I have to move some of the food she bought before she passed.She was always a healthy eater,fish,pork,veggies (chinese ) corn. I having orthoscopic surgery and need to stock up since I cann,t leave the house for at least a day.Iam going to bury some in the yard as fertilizer and keep at least one package in the fridge.

Anyway lesson for today is move on,embrace grief accept it,its part of your being.I shall try to adhere to the lesson I have laid down today

Dave