So sad today and depressed

I had a tough night last night.  Could not sleep, very restless.  Sometimes I think I have a plan and can get through this, other days I don't know if I am coming or going.  I feel like running, running as fast as i can to get away from my feelings, hopping the next plane to nowhere.  One day I have a handle on things and the next day the handle broke off. I suppose I still have a long way to go to get thru the grieving process.  I never dreamed it would be so hard.  My husband still opened my car door for me like he did when we dated.  What a gentleman.  We married in 1974.  He was an excellent father. I was very spoiled by my husband.  Just a very tearful day for me.

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Comment by Pamela Manning on September 28, 2012 at 2:22pm

Thank You so much Kathryn.  Sometimes I just get lost in my emotions.  I am so wanting to rebuilt and be stronger.  I will get there in due time I am sure. 

Comment by Kathryn Eldridge on September 27, 2012 at 6:27am

Pamela, I am sorry for your loss. I lost my mom 10 months ago. Grieving takes time, let yourself feel what you feel. It hurts I know. It will be benificial, though. If you can allow yourself to break you can then rebulid on a stronger foundation. Hugs.

 

 

Kathy

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