I don't know what to do! It's been 2 months since Nancy's 

death and the pain is worse than ever. In the house I can't

escape the never ending reminders of her. The bursts of 

tears just come on out of the blue and I say the same thing

over and over "Why did you leave me?" "Come Back to me'.

At night, I pray to God to take me so that I won't have to

wake up to this relentless nightmare. Yet, I continue to wake

up, stumble out of bed and begin another day's charade. Like

all of you, I feel like I'm lost at sea with no sign of shore. For 

the first time in my life I told my pastor that suicide had 

crossed my mind, but also dismissed. I hope we all keep our

faith strong and ever present with the peace that passeth all

understanding holding us up. May God bless each of you in

this wonderful group. It has saved my life on more than one

occasion, when in the middle of the night I would check in and

find some solace and comfort here. I thank God for giving me

24 years with my soul mate..anbd for these, I am eternally

grateful with hope that this horrible heartsick pain will

diminish while her memory becomes a joyful thing that will

always live in my heart. I Love you, Nancy!