We lived in our own little worlds. It went very fast when she went into St Davids South Austin Hospital the final time,as the wonderful doctors and nurses(don,t forgot the nurses) tore her body apart.(not literally ) You  know, heart valve repalcement,pacemaker oh gee don,t forgot shes on dialysis and won,t even have a chance of surviving. As me and her "gieving son and his wife stood around and watchd her life fade away.

Now if she survived she would have still given me a piece of her own living hell and maby I wold have caved in and drank myself to some kind of health problems or legal problems.

Well I really truthly know what it feels like to be alone which prompts me to get off my ass and do something before I wrinkle up and die from to much booze or just stop trying anymore

Dave