my darling son shawn, I miss you more then words can say. life without you is no life. my heart is so broken, I talk to you everyday every min, but you don't answer me, I keep asking why did you leave me ? I feel alone, empty, I love you so very much, you are my life. I can see your face and I die all over again. I cant stop crying, dear god I need you, I beg you to take me with you,  please don't leave me here,i want so bad to hold you touch you and kiss you, one more time. you are my world and always will be, how can I keep going? my only son, my only child,  my only love? if there is a god please take me now to my son please.  I love you shawn forever, my heart is your heart  love you baby.     mom