odd title ,I was let loose from the constaints of my marraige and the life I knew before she died.(floating in outer space) I think its horrible for anyone to lose a loved one.I have always had an immense hold on my emotions as far as angery outburst or crying.

Do I get periods of grief,yes the kind that paraylze your body. We should have never got married but we did for 35 yr ,Maby she saved me from worst things ,however you could never go up against her.

What makes it worst is your left with all her clothers,pictures keepsakes,Little things she had.Yesterday I thought  I had lost my pager in the car(she used to drive) I looked under the seat and saw all the watermelon seed remains(you eat the meat out of a seed and discard it) that struck an emotional note .

I find Iam still settling her affairs months after she has passed away. Its sad

dave