Everyday there is something new to contend with. I am not sure where the strength is coming from except that God and I have a new relationship and I am trusting in Him to lead me to where I need to be. For whatever reasons He took Michael home and who is anyone to question that?

In the beginning I struggled with thoughts of suicide - such a cowards way out. But in my grief I felt this was the solution to end the pain. Instead I turned - or God pulled me - in His direction.

I will continue to seek His hand in all that I do. I will recognize Him in my life. I will try daily to honor Him in my actions. I will pray to Him for guidance. I will love Him.