I cry everyday, I feel so dead, please shawn help me to be with you. that's all I want, that's what I need. I have never felt such pain in my heart. I need you to come to my dreams, let me hold you one more time, let me hear you call me  MOM , let me feel your love one more time. you are and always will be my perfect son, my baby forever. how will I handle your birthdays coming, mothers day is coming,  I will never be happy till I hold you again,  please god take me to my son, let me smile again, let me feel what its like not to cry, let me live again with my shawn.  always and forever mom