Moving life forward is relative, isn´t it? Basically there is no point in getting into action mode until we understand WHERE we are going or WHY. In the many hard times and multiple losses in my life, I gained EXPERIENCE that life is not about who MOVES FASTER, rather who chooses wisely the DIRECTION they are advancing life TOWARDS. There are too many roads to take and much to invest of time, energy, and resources. In society, it´s common to confuse wealth with health, doing versus quietly thinking. And lots of pressure to go in all directions at same time. And lots people thinking that by removal of what one loves the most they will wake up and run. When in fact they´d be just more disrupted and further broken down. MOVING FORWARD is a mind decision and the mind is ready in it´s own time. There is much to rebuld inwards to take one step forward in the right direction. And what may be the right direction to one may be the one a lot less popular to the rest. Just because some never stepped in my shoes, they don´t know where I want to go or when and how. Even peers that experienced exact same experience know that the WAY OUT is costum built to the OWNER. There is what works for me, and how I process everything is also costumized to my brain and emotions. Every single person is unique in finding ways to adapt, survive, and MOVE ON. I find very repulsive when people try to boss around each other´s ways out to move forward. I´d much more appreciate if they asked HOW THEY COULD BE OF ANY HELP in moving FORWARD. And even with that, the assumption is I AM NOT MOVING FORWARD, and that would not be true whatsoever. I may be moving in baby steps, but there is nothing wrong with me taking the time to be kind to myself, as opposed to give in all the craziness around in society as is. There are also things that get in the way and take more effort to take that out to make real progress. Mind you what people think of PROGRESS may not get even close to my own definition. And I am not competing with how fast and beautiful they can run when I am just concerned in taking firm steps into the right direction, the DIRECTON that works for me. Not the path of least resistance or more resistance, just my OWN PATH with the goods and bads of where my choices will lead. I think it´s safe to assume that God has so many plans for my life that I must pick and choose one that works best for me, but the walking or not is just wise after the PICK and CHOOSING is done, because I can do just so much and running into many directions will only take me to the pitfalls of each. THERE is TIME to process loss, and mature in the mind where makes SENSE to move TOWARDS. Lots pressure creates resistance. I find this is an alone process, for each and every direction there will be lots of people to walk with. And even misery finds good company. So, this is an internal resolve, and externalizing is just useful when there is a need to gather more support. But the explanation to people seems as if I wasn´t DOING THE VERY BEST I CAN, which is just crazy. More of a projection of others and their own insecurities. I always did and do the best I can, but these days I´d say I have to pick less fights daily to keep myself from derrailing. And if people ever truly cared to walk by my side, THEY WOULD KNOW and talking would be unecessary. If they were absent and now project illusions and whatever, that´s their issue and will consume them in time, but won´t define for even a second what I will do next. It´s my life only.