Sometimes we suffer from wanting a lot things that are not to our actual benefit. I find most of the loops in our minds leading to acke for the lack of anything can be simply because we are not sleeping well. And because of all we went through, the mind goes back to what it was. But it´s not by facing the world´s crap or putting the face out there to get hit that we get anywhere GOOD in ters of life balance. In fact, it´s quite the opposite. Limit exposre and realize when exceds craptometer so it does not send the mind into spins. When the mind goes there I can garantee there is no good to attract and there will be more resting needed to calm the mind. The balance lies in understanding what amounts of fights, where and how we best can fit in our coping capacity without retrocess. And coming out of great multiple losses or a badly enough single one, the world is certainly not prepared to reespect the hurt. It´s our hurt, and belongs to the owner only, the bads of the husrt, and garanteeing the safety withing healing capacity. It´s ok to embrace that coping capacity is lower than ususl and outside the realm of loss and what does to us. Of course our patience is less, more tired, and more prone to explode at anyone´s crap coming our ways. Specially the unexpected. As there is where we expect and there is life. And understanding society DOES NOT prime for addressing any suffering, it´s our job to plug into the vibes that contribute to healing and let go any crap there we are not signing up for. Sometimes it means showing the teeth when unexpected crap comes, just so their owners stay away for longer and we are safer to heal. It´s comon that peers guilt us for being less understanding than usual, and what is not ok is for us to buy any of it. Because when they hurt what we went through, I garantee they will get it, but it´s not for me to decide if they will ever grasp this. People just learn by experience, and to the more unavailable emontionally speaking to help, well, get off my back because I´ve been carrying a lot more weight there than most will care to do in 3 lifetimes. So, because they live in a selfish and irresponsible manner in terms of taking care one another, those standards are indeed just a poor common denominator in a capitalist society. Nothing more, nothing less.