there was a ,saying I picked up in AA (long time ago for AA) about being on your pity pot.I suppose being on your pity pot in grief is ok. Iam not going to be over my my loss(take three pills a day and see me in 6 month) I do know grief is stronge stronger than any emotion I have experienced.I wonder if it would have been different had I not allowed life support to be taken off. Had I not been stuck in the hallway of critical care faced with a decision to end someones life.

Yea had severe problems crop up .Maby they should have discharged her and said "heh enjoy your life,most likley your going to drop dead of a heart attack"

Well anyway here Iam like it or not"are you going to make it Dave" Ohh maby crawl more into the vodka bottle"naw it was bad even worse when she was alive.I drank to escape her revengful hate for me when she went into those "moods". Was drinking a cope out,an excuse to get drunk umm. Some higher power was out there helping escape some near misses while driving drunk.

Dave