I do know that Iam going to have to make an appoint with a P doctor (Iam tired of having to figure out how to spell psychotherapist) so hence P doctor. Not a urologist. A mental health dude .So ! we all have the memory of out loved one in our brains. Iam on occasion overwrought with grief maby not that much,yes that much.I feel her presence.However she is not here.As much as we were close and you know how that is I miss her.Its a difficult change in my life.Does her death bring me to a new begining..Its a very difficult begining .All these years the difficult times.the happy times..

So being codependent ,(a loose term to describe one making the decisions for another)Its a difficult change,the grief ,making my own decisions.Lets hope time heals.I have alot to heal within besides grief.

Dave