if god was who everyone thinks he is it wouldn,t be to bad. You loose a love one but bad people still walk the earth.I go out and drink and drive because my wifes behavior triggers it off(yes maby Iam using that as an excuse) Iam drunk so bad I end up almost getting in a wreck and blacking out at stop light. Does God save me from going to jail. Yes!! Should I have escaped getting arrested and going to jail. No maby God didn,t save me,it would be wrong thinking that. So months later I exercise the right to life thing concering my wifes out of control health problems, Not out of control ,just she was in pain from so many botched procedures in the hosp I wake up in the morning and by the afternoon she is dead. Did God have anything  to do with that .Maby he was sparing me punishment from jail due to drinking to thrust the most horrendous moment in my life on me. Me going thru life on a roller coaster of no responsibility.So I marvel and wonder at the mothers taking care of there young ones in the grocery store,the family units.Making love having kids,school,husband and wife unity togetherness. What ever it takes I never had that.

God may or may not have alot to do with events in our life. So here Iam and there she is ,Gods work ??

Iam not an angel of goodness.So one last lesson taking away the one I leaned on for support and throwing me out in the cruel world I think you pray to God for the goodness of your soul.

Dave