I have made a new friend, and she thinks that i'm a gift to her, but it's actually that she is a gift to me. Her mommy passed the day before Mother's Day, and she is the only child. So she is caring for her grief stricken father, and her husband is as lost as she is.  

She has started to notice signs from her mom- the most recent and awesome was when she was in an antique store there was a bucket of coins from around the world. She pulled one out which had a 10 on it (her mom passed on the 10th) and HER MOM'S NAME. Her mother's NAME is on the coin. Talk about a sign. Even though I get signs too I appreciate hearing that because it reminds me that life really is going on. 

Anyway, I can see things so clearly when I look at her and her husband and dad. I can see how far I've come since my mom passed (8 months ago) and even since my father in law passed (last month)- not because I am doing "better" than they are (I'm NOT!) but because I can differientate between the awful feeling of RIGHT AFTER to this feeling of semi used to it feeling, you know? I can see things like how perfect it is that she works for herself and he is in school and has no work obligation- they really need this time to rest and heal- which brings me to my next thing- I found the point to ME!  This is my time to rest and recover, DUH! So funny how I have to say it to someone else before I can hear it for ME. But I do see that and feel it now. 

I'm so thankful for my new friend and the things I learn from loving her through her big gigantic ouch. 

We got a puppy too. That helps. :) Going through my father in law's house hurt so badly this weekend, but coming home to a sweet warm puppy really helps. I love her.