It's May, perhaps this month will start an upturn for the better.

I woke this morning with anxiety hitting pretty bad, my mind went to some pretty dark places at that point.  I then started to read an article about the Dutch Tulip Bulb Bubble of the early 1600's and the wave of anxiety passed.  I need to remember that anxiety comes in waves and I was able to get out of it just by focusing on reading.  I also heard from the old friend who contacted me last week again, I was already out of the high anxiety mode when I heard from my friend, but it still helped.  Next I went outside and fed the birds and walked around my yard, I have a large yard, and it was good.  So right now feeling better than average for this time of day, something positive.

It's a beautiful day and I haven't colored it gloomy with the black crayons of my mind.  I am looking forward to a nice hike with my son today.  My sister came up with the black crayon analogy.  She told me a few days ago, that she was going to hind all my black and grey crayons, I thought it was very appropriate. 

I hope everyone here continues to move forward on our new journey in a positive way.

I am riding the emotional roller coaster but at least it feels like an upswing at the moment.

Mark