4-22-15 Later Evening

Not having the usual evening calm, tonight it's anxiety.  I never had an issue with this in my life before my wife passed away.  I don't like how it is become a more prevalent feeling.   It's debilitating.

I am still in denial.  How such a good day went so bad, how so many little things would probably changed the outcome, can't come to terms with what happened.  I will never understand the alcohol addiction, putting alcohol before your own welfare and that of your family.

I have evenings where I have felt normal, not tonight, can't relax.  

I have been working on this post for a while and the anxiety has started subsiding.  

I used to be a calm and confident man, my world has truly been turned upside down.

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Comment by Mark on April 23, 2015 at 12:15pm

No need to apologize, I am just riding the roller coaster.  Some less bad days some very bad, I look forward to when I have a good day.  If I figure out the secret sauce to feeling good I will let everyone here know.  And I do hope something I says helps or at least distracts you for a few seconds.

Take care 

Mark

Comment by morgan on April 22, 2015 at 10:31pm

Jeebus  I just posted to your other comment and now I think I shouldn't have.  I don't want to make anyone else worse I just want myself to feel better…….how??  Sorry…….

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