Well I slept better last night, so that's something. 

I have contemplated on why mornings are so difficult for me.  My wife was a morning person, almost always waking in a good mood, and I am not.  So she was my sunshine in the morning, I miss that, probably why it hurts so much during that time.

I have things to do today so maybe keeping busy will help me get through the day a little better.  I will still try to battle the thought loops that plague me.