I woke up with anxiety this morning.  It has to be the worst raw emotion when couple with grief, guilt, and loneliness.

It's been a little over five weeks, yet people talk about feeling less emotionally crippled in months and years.  That scares me thinking I am so early on in this process.  The night of my wife's passing is still raw and fresh in my head like it happened yesterday, but the pain I have felt since seems like it has been going on for an eternity.