Feeling Ok at the present time.  

I spent about 5 hours working outside in my yard today.  I had been putting it off, simple tasks seem very difficult now.  However once I got started it was Ok, I spent a lot of time spinning "What If" scenarios in my head, but at some point, I was able to rationalize the pointlessness of me doing it.

The work I did was hard, I think that helped, most physical thing I have done since my wife passed.  As well as a sense of accomplishment, repaired two grape trellises, cut up and cleaned up a tree that came down a few weeks ago, repaired my lawn mower with a spring from a ballpoint pen (felt like MacGyver), and cut a couple of acres of grass using my push mower.

I need to remember this when I am down.