Here we are again, the dreaded day closer to the 1 yr mark...I swear it feels like yest..Wish I could find at least one letter I would be happy with even the envelope...Why didn't I write something that changed that night?  Did you hear my vm?  I want to start writing you again, I know I wont get an answer, but I might in a different way?  I am missing you more then usual and can you believe I still don't feel like I grieved..it just never came out just lingers and sneaks up on me when I hear a song..I am dreading next month it will be one year since you were taken from us..Q says well he was defending his friend right mom..it hurts miss you more then words little brother..:,,,(