Well it has been awhile since I have posted or even visited my page.  My Grandfather passed away the end of April.  Although his passing was somewhat expected and almost a relief to end his suffering, I found this to be a particularly hard time. While there to help plan a funeral and grieve for my Grandfather, I found myself re-openning the wounds that plagued me the month before. Everything from entering the house where my father lived to seeing his clothes still hanging up was a continual… Continue

Question: What makes anyone think that after a month that I would stop missing him? I am finding more and more that people are very understanding for the first week or so when you feel like life has really thrown you a curve ball, but less and less as time goes on. I am not even talking about uncontrollable crying or crippling depression, just bring him up or getting misty eyed when mentioning that you don't know how you are going to cope with the holidays this year. It makes people wonder…

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The day started off good, took the kids to school, exercised at the Y, watched a movie with a friend, back home to clean house and prepare dinner.  I seems like sometimes it was just a bad dream that I let go on for too long. Then my mom calls to talk about selling the family home, money, care for the grandparents, and POP goes the fairy tale bubble I've been playing around in. I can't cope anymore.  I listen but I am not there, I feel like I can't breathe and I have the urge to hang of the… Continue