I don't even know where to begin ... Everyone thinks I am so strong and I handle this so well. But when I am alone I am depressed and despondent. My grief overwhelms me. I miss my child so very much. No matter how lucky I feel that I am blessed he left me with a awesome daughter in law and grand daughter. I still feel empty without my son, my baby. I can't seem to bring myself to talk to anyone about how I feel. I feel like if I do I make people uncomfortable. So I bury myself in my grief when… Continue

Just watch a video of a Marine drill team and it made me think of my son when he was graduating from boot camp. He called me a few weeks before hand to tell me the details. I was at work when I received the call and all I could do was cry I had not talked to him in weeks and I was so very proud of my son. He kept trying to tell me directions and I told him I would figure it out just tell me how you are. He later told me that he almost got in trouble from his drill Sargent because I was…

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I am tired .. Tired of missing him, wishing he were here. Tired of hiding my tears and crying. Tired of trying to be strong when all I want is him home with me. I can't seem to be able to talk to anyone about my son. the sad thing is I feel like I am offending people when I do talk about him. I understand they just don't know what to say. Because my son was an adult most of the people i know now  did not even know him. so it is difficult for them. most of all I just miss him

I feel so lost since i lost my son. I think of him every minute of every day. my grief is so strong. it is hard to be at home or work. I miss him so very much he was my first born, the first true love of my life. I can not even begin to fathom life without him in it. To watch him grow older, to be there for his daughter and wife to see them grow old together, and watch his daughter grow up. He would have been 28 years old on the 13th. We went and had dinner at one of his favorite restaurants…

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