I don't even know where to begin ... Everyone thinks I am so strong and I handle this so well. But when I am alone I am depressed and despondent. My grief overwhelms me. I miss my child so very much. No matter how lucky I feel that I am blessed he left me with a awesome daughter in law and grand daughter. I still feel empty without my son, my baby. I can't seem to bring myself to talk to anyone about how I feel. I feel like if I do I make people uncomfortable. So I bury myself in my grief when I am alone.