On october 18 it will be my friend, Matts, 1st angelversary. Can't believe it has been a year since that terrible day. I remember everything like it were yesterday. Hearing the call go down on the scanner, looking up the address and going completely pale realizing that it was matt, going to jenni's to break the news to her, going to be with deidre and talk to/console her. Wow. 

Holidays are coming up and that is when I miss my friends and family the most. Holidays are the time of year…