My husband and I had discussed that this past year we were going to tell my son the truth about santa, etc. Then my husband passed in October so I didn't want to take that magical experience away from him even though he's 9 because it was so close to his father passing. Now with Easter coming up- has it been long enough to tell him the truth about the bunny since he is 9 now or should I let him hold that for one more year? Very torn.

Right now no matter what I do everything seems to be wrong when it comes to my son trying to deal with this also and it is a big thing for him so I am trying to do special things. Today I made reservations for horseback riding (which I love and am experienced) and he wanted to do for the first time finally. After I made the redervations he was happy for a while but then it was right bacj to yelling at me and hittting himself in the face making me feel like the worst mother in the world. I…

Just wanted to say to everyone, please don't feel nervous or uncomfortable talking to me after reading my blog if you are not religous or or religions clash views. I will only talk about you, your feelings and what you are going through. I promise I'm not going to be "preachy" or anything like that, I'll just ne a good friend e=with an open ear and open heart. Love to everyone and hope everyone is making it through the day alright. :)

If it was off putting to anyone I do…

I would like to say to everyone first that I am not here to change your mind or try and brainwash you or something to that effect. So, if you can have an open mind for just a few minutes and keep reading, I promise at the end it will be your choice to believe or not to believe.

Please bear with me if I stumble or am repetative, I don't mean to and it doesn't mean I don't know what I'm saying, it's just that I don't know how to say some of the things I want. My husband was the preacher…