Tuesday makes it 7 weeks since I found my soulmate's body in his car. I miss Anthony Hitson so much that it is literally killing me. I've had two panic attacks, one of which caused a TIA or mini stroke. Every morning, I come out to the edge of the pasture and would have a good cry with talk time..you all know. Then, before bed, I repeat. Illm
Anthony

Anthony,

 When we had these talks about what happened if one of us died, those were for my knowledge....I am the sick one. I told you, I told you, I told you, I can't do this without you. When I found your lifeless body in your car, I wanted to die! What happened? I keep kicking myself in the ass for giving you space and just going inside.....I should have brought you in with me. I should have came out sooner.....I should have.........something! I know you hate seeing me in pain but…

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