Ever since my dad passed away I feel lost in so many ways , he was always there for me now I just have my kids and my mom and my niece but its not the same ... This dec it will be the hardest for me and my mom it will be his anniversary of his death so we are going to spend time together to get each other threw it ...

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad…

I'm trying to leave all these pain full thoughts behind and move forward , its not easy as my shrink says ..... How do u forgive your own mom for pushing u away when my dad was ill and died that's my main pain full thing ...