I feel so depressed, today I am thinking off my dad and everyone that I lost through the years ... But for some reason I'm here blogging and listening to my dads music Michael Bolton one of mine and my dads favorites, after a long morning I'm just sitting here trying to be happy at this moment listening to music and trying to reach out to people that are going through the same thing .... I cant beleave its all most Christmas where does the time go ? .. I am not a big fan off Christmas my dad passed away 2 days before Christmas , I only do it for my children and my beautiful niece that's 4 .. I'm like everyone else I have my good days and bad , today is just a so so day , I cryed and yelled this morning at my son for staying up until 2 am and not getting up for school , I had so many tears and asked my dad in my head why me , why cant you be here with me ? ....  My story is since he left me I feel like hes with me some how... Its so weird when I feel hes with me my mom has all these things happen to her like pictures fall of the wall , flash of light in the basement going by us , or if he doesn't like some change my mom does he lets her no bye keep moving things upside down or off the walls ... I thought my mom was going crazy until I saw it for myself ... Daddy I want you to no I love you and miss you more than anything and I no you are here with me even if you are trying to tell us something ... I hate crying like this but its never ending tears and a lot of thoughts ... I wanted to share this with everyone ..