It's been over two month since I lost my oldest brother to evil cancer. He was donated for research to The University of Tennessee. The have completed the research and we finally get him for his funereal. It's been such a long hard struggle to say good-bye since we didn't get one in January. Since I found that we are ready for one I've hurt a lot less and been less sad. Don't get me wrong I wish we never needed one to begin with. He should still be alive with his two beautiful son's watching… Continue

I miss you so much. I feel like your not really gone. I keep dreaming about you. That you'll come back, your really okay. You've only gone for a little while then you'll come back in perfect health. The pain is so deep and killing me inside, I just want to scream until I can't scream any longer. I can't bare the pain. I can't bare the hurt. I can't stop the tears. I can't stop the fear. I myself just wanna die. I hurt. I hurt so bad inside that words aren't able to even grasp even a tiny grain… Continue