My boyfriend and I managed a hotel, now that he has passed away the owners, have fired me. So along with me grief over his traumatic loss, which I was there to personal witness his death by robberies, I also have to deal with no job. Just how much can I handle?

I am just so tired!!

Joe was from Ireland and since his death, I have not spoken to anybody from his family apart from his ex wife. I feel like I would like to be in Ireland to be at the funeral. I feel like the family did not include me, I was the one there with him, since he moved to the island!! I feel left out. And I was also there with him on the night of death!!

It becomes even more important to me to have a memeorial for him on the island!!