As I went through paperwork today I find it amazing that our whole life fits in a box.our births .our marriage the birth of our son a lifetime of memories all neatly plaCed in a box .. I cried while I went through those papers as memories flooded my mind memories of happiness and sadness .. Our life ..now I need to start a new box for our new life as I systematically remove u from it all and with each thing I do the hole in my soul gets bigger and bigger ..I don't want a new box with new things… Continue

I don't understand.. I want to find peace from all this sorrow. Everyone says how strong I am but do I really have a choice?? I miss my husband my mother my grandparents and brother all gone but yet somehow I remain here. I think to myself everyday why .. Why am I here .. Am I meant to suffer like this forever .. There are holes in my soul for every love that I have lost and now my husband .. My protector the one person that I never thought I would lose . I really thought I'd die before him ..… Continue