Yesterday was one month for me. I feel kind of disjointed, but some very dear friends came over and we had a really nice day. Today has been sad and kind of bleak. I rested a lot and just stayed home. Thank you you Cathy for sharing your thoughts with me.

OMG where did that time go!?!

Met with a few friends from work to eat lunch. Made some tough decisions this last week, and got a couple of good grades in school. Glad today was not a yesterday. I miss my Michael.

I feel like someone turned my binoculars backwards and I am looking at a little bitty world but I know it's a really big world, and it is not the same. I feel kind of disjointed, sad, mad, out of sorts, and impatient all at once. I miss Michael! Often I have not so nice names for him because I think he was a jerk for leaving me like he did... then I feel guilty... and all of this grief comes over me and I just manage to say bad day to everyone who asks.

Today we went to Precious Moments, and all around me was living color, but the one thing that kept hitting me was the word GONE. Earlier today it was SAD. I miss you and I want your warmth and your arms and I can't have them. I can't talk to you and I don't hear you say "Honey Baby" anymore. My bed is empty and cold and my heart feels like it's been glued shut. I miss you Michael.…